Sometime Between September 9 and September 13, 2019
My labored breaths fill the otherwise silent hallway of the drab motel as I sprint down the cheaply-carpeted floor in my socks. The large key-ring in my hands jingles like a Christmas bell as the tiny jagged metal pieces bounce and sing against one another, ensuring that my thumb and forefinger are clamped around a very specific one.
It’s tinier than the others, and could easily get lost amongst the myriad of multi-colored keys and plastic fobs surrounding it.
I rip the electronic keycard out from between my teeth, muscling the door open and leaping over the mattress in a whirlwind of urgency. The floor is littered with cardboard boxes, some large and some small. Frantically-torn packaging tape and ripped bubble wrap tell the chaotic story of a very recent and ongoing descent into an invisible madness.
All the boxes are addressed to me. All the contents of which are now on the mattress. The only mattress in the room. A mattress, that hasn’t been slept in once since I checked in… 3 days ago.
3 days? Has it been 3, or 4?
I can’t remember.
Because I haven’t slept.
Nor have I eaten. Haven’t needed to.
Something else is sustaining me. Something much more powerful than nutrition.
A strange new fuel that has been bubbling inside me for days. Negating the need for sleep. The need for food or water. And with it, a stroke of genius that has elevated me beyond anything I’ve ever thought possible.
I have discovered the meaning of… everything.
Of life. Specifically, MY LIFE. And now I’m absolutely overcome with the compelling need to spread the message.
I am GODLIKE. I am superhuman. I’ve been granted special powers. I feel, amazing. I feel ALIVE.
And I need to make use of these powers before they disappear again. Like they did the last time. I CANNOT waste this. It’s my duty to mankind.
But I must be careful. Must tread lightly. Mustn’t let on to just anyone that I’ve been granted these powers.
They wouldn’t believe anyways. They’d take me away somewhere. Put me in a padded room. Lock me up. And throw away the key.
And who will spread the message then? It has to be me. I am THE ONE. The one the world is waiting for.
This will be the first time I’ve left the motel room since I arrived.
But is it the first time, really?
I’m having trouble with the timeline.
The events are jumbled in my mind, because they have too much to compete with. My thoughts are riding on the coattails of a thunderbolt. They zip through my mind so quickly I can barely keep up.
I’ve tried to write them all down, but it happens so very fast and I have SO MUCH to think about. So many plans.
Okay – enough about that, though. Keys! We need keys! NOW. What’s that? No, not the keys in my hand, silly! These are different keys. Car keys!
Where are they? Under this? I toss a box to the corner of the room. Nope. Not under there! Not to worry! We’ll find them. I just know it!! Although the post office closes soon and I’m worried tha— THERE!
RIGHT THERE DO YOU SEE THEM?
I snatch them up and allow myself a quick victory fist-pump. Run to the door, nearly walk out with no shoes on my feet. Whoops! Silly me!
I chuckle to myself as I smash my feet forcefully into each pre-tied shoe, pausing for a moment to rip a piece of stray packaging tape from my sock, and toss it into the air like a ribbon-toting rhythmic gymnast.
Sprint out to the rental car with one heel still clamoring to fit inside it’s collapsed shoe-space.
I should probably give that back, soon.
The car, I mean.
They’ll be wanting that. They’ll be searching for it. And if they find IT then they find ME, and that’s no good at all now is it? RIGHT?!
As I glance into the rear-view mirror and throw the car into reverse, I catch a glimpse of my eyes.
My pupils, are enormous. Like, the size of dinner plates enormous.
That’s concerning. Like I’m on drugs or something. I mean… technically I am…
…on several as a matter of fact. But they’re prescribed for my depression. And they must be working because I feel AMAZING.
DEPRESSION? WHAT DEPRESSION???
The tires squeal as I just miss the curb, parking diagonally in the tiny lot. I Run to the desk, and greet the service agent emphatically with a charming quip. She knows me by name now. ISN’T THAT GREAT?
I speed-walk between the corridors lined with tiny metal boxes, pivoting my head round my neck ferociously like a bird.
Until my glassy, bloodshot eyes land on the triple-digit number I’m looking for. I reach into the box, pull out a heavy stack of mail.
Mail that’s been addressed to the hotel I’m staying at.
I thumb through it quickly. And right there, in the middle of the stack… exactly what I need. A tiny box with my name on it. FUCK YES.
As I drive back to the hotel, the glint of metal on the unfamiliar key-ring catches my eye for a brief moment, discarded hastily onto the passenger seat.
And with it, a quick pang of something… unpleasant.
What is that?
Ah… yes… I’m feeling slightly guilty now.
I did yell at that poor hotel manager, after all.
The pleasant middle-Eastern man with the heavy accent and the concerned eyes.
But I’d NEEDED to, you see. He wasn’t getting it. The significance.
He hadn’t understood.
I’m leaving tomorrow. Going… where exactly am I going?
Fuck it, it’s not important. What IS important is that NOW I have everything I need to get moving. All of the gear. ALL OF IT. I’m going to need that gear very soon. My plans require it.
And that nice man, he wasn’t being very cooperative and so I’d had to raise my voice to help him understand just how important this box, and this gear, is to me.
But then he’d gotten a bit scared, and he’d basically THROWN me the keys to EVERY DOOR in the hotel so that I could go and check the mailbox myself.
And so I had.
But still, I wish I hadn’t had to yell. I’m really not that type of person. Honest. I’m a nice, polite, kind, brunette lady. Usually.
When I get back to my hotel room, I rip open the very last of my packages.
And pull out the compass.
I smile widely, and cram all the objects I can inside my brand-new extra-large hiking backpack.
Tomorrow I leave.
Tomorrow… I fulfill my destiny. ONCE AND FOR ALL.
Lightning rips across the sky that night. I know, because I don’t sleep.
To Be Continued…